ive lost my faith, alot of my childhood was built on lies, went to church every sunday not for religion but for schooling (me going to church meant i could go to a private religious school), while my dad said he was catholic but cheated, did indecent things, i actually was catholic, although was never baptized, my dad had lied to the church about that too, i am now an adult and with a confusing passed i chose to move from religion. i am now coming to a point in my life where i feel like reconnecting.
where do i start, how can i find a community. even preying feel disingenuous.
I know you’ve had 5 months to think about this, but have you talked to a priest about your feelings? RCIA, Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults will help you learn the tenants of the faith.