I do think that if you’re interested in learning more about Christianity, then you should probably start with the source material—even if you feel like you already know it from childhood, because you’ll see it differently now. I learned Ancient Greek in university and translated parts of the Christian Scriptures, and I really strongly recommend going with an NRSV translation. It’s not perfect, but I think it’s really excellent and isn’t denominationally-focused so you avoid the terribly biased translations. I highly recommend buying an NRSV Study Bible and reading the introductions to the books or any meaningful footnotes.

It’s unavoidable to read the Gospels for obvious reasons, reading the four won’t take you long as they are quite short, but it’s also good to read Acts to get the “follow-up” to what happened to the Apostles after Jesus died. But it’s very important not to forget Paul’s Epistles (Galatians, Romans, I&II Corinthians). Paul’s Epistles are actually the earliest Christian texts we have and, as such, are foundational and invaluable to Christianity. The earliest Gospel is Mark at about 60-70CE but Paul’s Letter to the Galatians is dated to about 50CE.

If the “goal” of Gnosticism is to is to escape to the perfect, immaterial world, what would be the point of making our current one better?

Personally, this is partly why I firmly reject Gnosticism. Besides Gnosticism also often finds itself used in anti-Semitic rhetoric (e.g., your assessment of the God of the Jewish Scriptures as “malevolent”) to argue that Christianity, and therefore Gentiles, are the superior religion and people (i.e., God of Love, Goodness, Chosen Elect, etc.). I don’t think the texts support this as I think the Jewish religion already sets the ground for Jesus to declare that God is Love. And we see literally thousands of years of historical, theological, and spiritual progression in Judaism so I think the self-criticism is already literally there in the Jewish Scriptures themselves, but I digress. Ultimately, both Judaism and Christianity are dynamic but also materialist in an undeniable way. Take the only definition of religion in both Scriptures found in James 1:27

Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to care for orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world.

Can’t you easily imagine Communists running an orphanage or collectively supporting widows who lost their only means of financially surviving in the world? Just so you don’t think I’m playing political favorites, this is the same writer who then immediately goes on to condemn discrimination against the poor and the exploitation of workers. Doesn’t sound very capitalist or fascist to me. Might even be good for you to begin with the Epistle of James, which is very short. There are many instances in Christian Scriptures where there is a real and proto-political focus on improving the life of our communities here on earth that can’t just be easily dismissed as drug-addled fantasy, albeit not technically Marxist in its scientific materialism but is still impressively close or reconciliatory considering that it not only predates Marxism by thousands of years as well as all the philosophy that it was built upon but also capitalism. This same possibility doesn’t exist for Gnosticism, in fact most Leftists critique (rightly so) either fundamentalism or a form of popular Gnosticism that has overtaken mainstream Christianity. Even popular concepts of Hell aren’t Biblical but apocryphal, Gnostic, or modern (Dante, Milton). The spirituality of Gnosticism is idealism, which is to escape the physical for the higher plane of the mind and soul to find solitary connection with God; the religion of Christianity is material, in that we are to socially create love for our neighbors and care in our communities and that very love between us which connects us is itself God’s development and coming-into-presence on earth. Anyway, these are just my thoughts on Gnosticism and Christianity. I’m sorry for rambling but I hope it was somewhat helpful.

You’ll have to find your own way to interpret these texts and find a meaning to them that is valuable and speaks to you. Maybe you’ll find a way to make Gnosticism work for you. That being said, we also should always approach the Scriptures critically and understand that even the Church Fathers didn’t have modern fundamentalist opinions about the text: one can disagree with the Bible and it shouldn’t always be taken literally, many things like miracles or creation can be metaphorical. It was written over a long, long period of history by many, many different men and should be approached critically. Sad part is that most ‘Christians’ now have lost that part of the tradition. And I totally agree with you that, most Christian communities are hateful and toxic—which is to say, neither Christian nor Leftist—so it might be good to explore this meaning by yourself first and figure out what you make of it and then take it out into the world to practice. Communist praxis wouldn’t look much different, to be honest. I personally have an inextricably intertwined politico-religious perspective where I don’t think either side would be as rich or fulfilling without the other and I don’t see any irreconcilable contradictions between my understanding of Christianity as such and Communism. A couple of books I’d recommend on a Leftist analysis of Christianity: Jacob Taubes’ The Political Theology of Paul and Nikolai Berdyaev’s The Divine and the Human. Badiou’s Saint Paul is good too.

Wish you luck on your path, comrade, and I’m always happy to talk if you’d like or answer any questions if I can.