I have to cover a Spectrum mobile payment soon which is just giving me even more stress in the midst of so much financial bullshit. I hope I can finally get into a fucking job very soon, but my hope is now at practically zero due to continued effort and no good outcomes.

I especially hate how the hopelessness got me into a catch 22. I don’t wanna apply for more jobs because I have no hope I’ll get them, but it’s not like not applying for a job will get me one either. I’m still mindlessly filling out applications, but I keep my hope at zero through all of it.

I’m depressed, I wanna cry, and I hate a lot about life right now, but at least I have community, both inside and outside of Hexbear. Anyone who’d be willing to help keep my phone access is literally amazing. I thank those who helped me get my prescriptions covered too.

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Thank you.