Personality and lifestyle-wise, I’m way too liberal for the communists. Beliefs, values, and ideals wise, I’m way too communist for the liberals
I’m hardly interested in the “stereotypical” autistic culture but I’m also way too autistic for allistic people
Don’t fit in with white people at all but also don’t fit in with my racial group because the way they live out their identity and culture is purely through liberal consumerism. Also, EVERY young Westerner is a white supremacist to some degree, even ALL the minorities, unless they’re a far left communist
Too bourgeoisified to fit in with most working class but I’m also way too class conscious and radicalized to fit in with peers of the same socioeconomic status
Not queer enough to fit in with the queer community and much too queer to fit in with cishet people
Honestly, I was infinitely happier when I was living life as a fully masking cishet liberal. I actually felt a much stronger sense of belonging back then. The more I learn about myself and try to live true to my heart, the more and more I suffer
I want to go back to when I didn’t know anything about the world or myself.
I think you are thinking of yourself as being static and unchanging relative to this new turn. You have changed and you will keep changing. If communism is what you believe in, then there’s nothing stopping you from making yourself into more of a communist.
Thanks for the reminder, you’re definitely right
A lot of these changes have come within the last 1-3 years and I’m pretty used to making new circles of friends, advancing to new stages of my life, etc. within a year but my current changes might just take me longer