I don’t experience anxiety very often but when I do it’s bad. I HAVE to do something about it I NEED to ease my anxiety somehow and usually these anxieties are based on insecurity so it tends to be begging my girlfriend for reassurance. This has only happened like twice in 4 years so it is thankfully not common. You must understand that if she is not available I will go to any lengths to contact her. The only time she has ever been unavailable at that time almost killed our relationship because I called her dad and sister trying to get a hold of her. Granted both instances of this sort of anxiety happened within a span of two months, my mental health was terrible at the time and it was my first time ever experiencing that sort of emotion but I don’t want it to happen again. I’m in therapy now, we both are, and things are ok.

Physically, I feel electric as well. Like I have a current running through me. It isn’t a shock but more like a persistent buzz. I’ll even sometimes feel physically numb. As if slamming my limp hand against a solid object wouldn’t even register.

I also feel similarly out of control, I know logically at the time that I’m taking things too far and every part of being is screaming to fucking stop but every second I wait is unbearable so another part of me will do anything to reach it’s conclusion. However terrible I might make that conclusion for myself in the process.

Looking back these are more akin to panic attacks but unfortunately that so the only way I experience anxiety. I don’t typically even worry about things until they are affecting me but I’m also ADHD so that’s probably why