I call myself “ostensibly cishet” because I look very much like a straight man, but I certainly don’t feel like a man and live in an area where my life would be destroyed if I referred to myself as something else

My use of language in the above sucks, but as a kid, I would always hang out at “the girls table” or in “the girls section” because the guys would always pick on me. It’s made life super difficult because when I meet a friend who is a woman now and ask them to hangout, their assumption is always that I want a partnership.

I literally only have one female friend who isn’t like this. It’s gotta be the fucking patriarchy right

Anyways, it’s so fucking lonely.

Why are apps only for people looking to fuck/get into relationships :/

  • whoops@hexbear.netEnglish
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    9 months ago

    I do not get along with men. Like, at all. I don’t feel comfortable around them, don’t want to trust them, not interested in them. Idk why.

    I get along much better with women but there’s always the barrier of me being a guy, so I always feel like the outsider. But also apparently the women I know currently all think I’m gay, and a particularly queeny gay at that. I wasn’t aware I gave off that vibe.

    I don’t know what to do with this information. I’m a tiny bit bi and I’m not offended by it, per se.

    But it hurts for a reason I can’t articulate. I feel like I’m even more the outsider. I’m nervous to interact with them knowing what they think.