What a fucking night. I haven’t been out in at least 6 months. Here’s to building a social life!
I get so stressed out seeing my family. I love my dad and them, but I feel like such a failure.
My cousin just got her cert in childhood education, and I dunno. I feel left behind, alone. A black sheep, where my cousins are successful and I’m still floundering away trying to get anywhere.
I suppose it’s easier for Dad to be proud of them, when they have done things to be proud of.
I know these are my own insecurities, and I’d never project onto anyone. But it’s hard seeing my own success when I don’t feel I’ve gotten anywhere at all, or done anything notable. I guess it would be nice if they reached out at all, but they only do when something is going on, and even then I’ve been forgotten lol
Ehh I’m overthinking. Whatever.
But did they have other people drag them down, and have to spend time rebuilding?
Not everyone gets an equal shake
I understand that feeling. Very, very well.
The only person you can compare yourself to, is who you were yesterday.
I hope that helps 🙂
Can I disagree.
You have done the very hard work on being a better and healthy person. If you’re the only one in your family who has done this it’s not uncommon to feel a bit out of place. You think and feel and believe differently now.
And education is life long. Once you get into your stride you’ll excel at everything and outshine them all.
So many hugs.
can I relate about my own sibs. They are all better off financially than me. While I was fighting the demons they accepted them and some even became demons themselves. They had the energy to do the socially easy things.
Did Father’s Day shopping plus birthday shopping as Mr P’s bday is in a few weeks, and I thought I may as well get it out of the way whilst all the manly gifty goods were on display for the purchasing at a discount price lol.
A friend of a friend of ours has a Staffy which has just had pups and we are being offered our choice. 😃🤔😃🤔😃🤔😃🤔 are my thoughts at the moment. I love them; I’ve always found them loving, staunch, and funny, such clowns. And I’d love for the kids to finally have a dog. And the breeder’s lovely. BUT… The side fence needs replacing and the neighbours insist they can’t afford to pay their share, so we’ve been nailing bits together and making do with star pickets for years. They’ve got a very exy breed of dog they’ve had for a few years (think several grand) so I’m surprised they’re not more motivated to do the fence, but blood from a stone I guess. A Staffy would eat the fence for brekkie. Plus they do need very strong, solid and consistent training right from the very beginning. Plus all the costs involved, on a single income 😬 I feel very sad inside, because I always thought that if you can’t afford to prioritise the costs of pet ownership for an animal that relies on you for it’s existence then you shouldn’t do it. If I’m not being a hypocrite then I know my answer, even though I haven’t given an answer yet. It’s not fair for the dog or us if we’re just scraping by. But it hurts. It’s not the first time I’ve been offered a pup; last time it was a Jack Russell, a breed I love even more (I’ve owned 3). That one really hurt to say no to, and Mr P was shitty at me for days, but I just can’t. I can’t if I can’t afford to be the kind of owner the dog deserves. And it hurts 😔
You’re doing the right thing.
Is Mr. P going to be equally enforcing the consistent training, doing the walks and cleaning the poo, taking it to the vet, paying for the costs? Responsibility for a pet tends to fall mostly on mum and all of the effort, cleaning and replacing chewed items also goes up with a baby animal.
Hopefully there’s a better situation in future and you get to wholeheartedly say yes to a puppy.
" It’s not fair for the dog or us if we’re just scraping by. But it hurts. "
Yes it hurts, but this is responsible pet ownership in action. You have nothing to reproach yourself if you decline their offer. The fence situation is a deal breaker too imo. And when it comes to strong, solid and consistent training - do you think anyone other than yourself can supply that? And there are so many other calls on your time and effort. What would happen if you or one of the minipeelers got sick? You’re doing the right thing - both for your family and for the dog. There will come a time in the future when the stars all align and its the right time to get a pup. Just not now.
A Staffy is a major undertaking. It’s big and strong and you don’t want to neglect training. And they eat a lot and are expensive.
Best for you all and for the dog.
Hugs.
At 2 pm today I put a batch of pea & ham soup into the slow cooker. It’s just finished now. Note to self: next time remember to use high setting not low.
Bet it’s delicious either way!
I do a good p&h even if I do say so myself. Just yesterday took so loooooong and I didn’t realise at the time.
Laurent closes in 20 mins… do I go… no, I’ll make it a Sunday morning treat. So that it gets me out of the house. Just not feeling it today.
Vacuumed the house after like 3 weeks (gross ,I know) and that’s about all I want to do for the day. I did the most urgent thing and that’s good enough. zzzzz
after like 3 weeks
I’m at about 5 weeks.
I’m about the same. To be fair I need a new vacuum. I went to buy one today but was overwhelmed by all the stick vac choices so I went home empty handed 🫠
If anyone wants a spiritually market, just hit up the St Andrews market any Saturday. People are selling rocks, hippie clothes and all that stuff.
My dumb ass wanted cheap fruit and vegetables
Ashamedly, I’m sort of hippie-curious 🔮
I posted about it partially for you. You can make a morning trip up to St Andrews instead of editing for one of the big markets.
And between St Andrews and Hurstbridge you’d be able to get into the hippie scene pretty quickly and decide if it’s for you
Thank you mate. I’ve put it into my calendar. Worst case, I come away smelling like patchoulli and nag champa
That’s where those types go to make money lol! My mum used to do tarot card readings at Caribbean Markets near Rowville she’d make heaps of cash from old ladies 😂
Edit: she didn’t think she was a scammer btw lol she seriously believes she’s a psychic 🙄
I think if both parties believe in what they’re doing then it’s not a scam. You could see it as your mum was working as an entertainer and the old women were getting their money’s worth
Not really a fan of the new straight across. I softened the ends a bit but was too cautious, so it’s still a bit blunt and l don’t really like it. It is a more manageable length though.
I’ve spent today just sleeping cuddled up with Melbcat. Daily life is really hard.
so many hugs, do what ever you can to make it easier
Sleeping is ok. Is melbcat feeling a bit better?
She’s been having a bit of wet food! She’s still drinking a lot of water and a bit painy so I’m really hoping that the antibiotic is working.
That’s great news! Sending my love 💗
That’s a positive step. Fingers crossed for her (and you)
Good night. 😽
That feeling when the cat curls up in my knee-pits
🙌💜🐱💜🙌
