Every time I run ps with the G option (gender) to see which one is running on my system this happens:

Bad system call (core dumped)

What does this mean?

Yeah, you’re right. I guess I’m just harboring such a bad attitude toward this purely out of anxiety tbh. Like you said, the label itself doesn’t change anything about the experience.

it’s basically a rite of passage for a late-diagnosed ADHDer or autistic person to collect at least one mood disorder before arriving at the correct diagnosis. If you’re AFAB or PoC then you can pretty much expect to run a gauntlet of mood disorders before you reach the finish line.

Oh yes, % lmao, it took me years going through the gauntlet of medical bureaucracy on and off to even get this far

I actually got an ADHD diagnosis from a psychologist at this clinic. It’s weird, this is my 2nd visit with her (nurse practitioner) about it and after the atomoxetine she gave me didn’t help she wants to treat me for bipolar (she didn’t specify what type, idek if she actually diagnosed me cuz idk if she can even do that but she prescribed me the aripiprazole). I’m just really confused about this whole thing :(

atomoxetine straight off the bat

Yeah, that’s what she did during our last appointment and it didn’t help

Idk if this keeps being weird I’ll have to see if I can extract my ADHD diagnosis docs from them and go somewhere else :(

This bipolar thing is really scaring me though, “looking into it”, as they say. I asked some friends and family and they said they never noticed anything like manic or depressive episodes from me

Thank you for your input, tbh I’ve just been stressing about this all day I’m gonna go try to relax

Yeah I watched the first episode and using my Vault-Tec® Pip-Boy™ 9000’s Bazingameter I have already calculated this shit is 55.7%

Video game thing

at best.

They are literally doing Fallout 3’s premise again with a side of oooooooooooooooh the Enclave are back again!

Trust the plan

Magnets to come

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I don’t understand why she jumped to this diagnosis after maybe a combined total of spending 30 mins talking with me (This was our 2nd appointment and I saw her for the first time in person today).

Your experience of hypomania doesn’t really sound like me at any time… I think. Occasionally I will get very invested in topics or projects which brings me a lot of satisfaction and I might sleep a bit less than usual and use a lot of caffeine to stay focused but I don’t really feel more confident or any kind of all-encompassing euphoria or any desire to engage in any risky or impulsive behavior out of the ordinary. Idk :( I guess sleeping less is the most concerning… last time this happened I just felt “okay” as opposed to my usual “things are hopeless and I’m barely hanging on”. I have a lot of anxiety about my health normally so it’s hard to tell what’s a real symptom or what I have convinced myself I have. It’s hard to remember my behavior exactly too… I’m not sure if I was sleeping less or not last time.

Do you have depressive episodes? What are they like for you? I have been feeling pretty bad in the last month or so (although I usually always feel bad these days, depression, anxiety, etc). That same NP gave me some medication for my ADHD that didn’t really help and made me feel a lot more anxious and maybe depressed around the same time. Then some other condition I have was getting worse. It’s just so confusing :( I guess I have good reasons to feel worse than usual?

I’ll ask my therapist about it tomorrow. It could get weird though because they both work in the same small clinic and my therapist referred me to her. Maybe I could ask my primary doctor about it too.

I see :(

Maybe I have had hypomanic episodes? I’m not sure… some of this seems familiar but I’m not sure how I would tell it apart from ADHD. And I’ve never experienced anything like grandiosity or risky behavior or psychosis or anything…

This really sucks

I’ll ask my therapist about it tomorrow

Just really didn’t expect this, I really don’t need even more chronic conditions in my life :(

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BSD Makefile templates go hard

PROG	 = tlbot
SRCS	 = main.c
CFLAGS	+= $$(pkg-config --cflags libcurl) -Wall
LDFLAGS	+= $$(pkg-config --libs libcurl)
NOMAN	 =

.include <bsd.prog.mk>

Plan 9 mk even better though: (from /sys/src/cmd/cdfs)

</$objtype/mkfile

TARG=cdfs

OFILES=\
	buf.$O\
	main.$O\
	mmc.$O\

HFILES=\
	dat.h\
	fns.h\
	../scuzz/scsireq.h\

BIN=/$objtype/bin
</sys/src/cmd/mkone

Why are you using GNU Make or even… (derogatory) Autotools?

The flash memory controller in your e-reader hasn’t swapped out any of the blocks that store your copy of Capital due to overuse by multiple reads or writes? Interesting…

It says here that your e-reader’s operating system has been up for 3 months, has 1 GB of free memory and yet your copy of Blackshirts and Reds isn’t even cached… hmmm…

The access time recorded on your copy of Imperialism is the same as the creation time… very interesting

guess i won’t be seeing this, even just to laugh at how dumb it is

Genuinely really pretty photo

NOW

TAKING

APPLICATIONS

amber bump whataboutism volcel police https://old.reddit.com/r/bigfloppa/comments/1bvs8je/the_button/

I will award a class B network to anyone who can come up with a new internet protocol, simpler than IPv6 and it has to be called BEANS somehow

I will make it a class A if you can come up with a more readable addressing format than IPv6’s 128-bit CAFEBABE nonsense

Don’t do sleep deprivation or you will end up badposting like me

STOP DOING NAT

SYSTEMS PARTICIPATING IN THE INTERNET WERE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE UNREACHABLE OUTSIDE OF THEIR LOCAL SUBNET

Wanted to do it anyway, as a bit? We had a tool for that: it was called a “FIREWALL”

YEARS OF HEADER MANGLING yet NO REAL WORLD USE FOUND for going beyond variable length globally routable subnet masking

“Yes, you can reach my system at 134.84.167.99 but only through port 483. Oh, you want to play a game together? Let me forward a port (??) or we can use STUN to traverse my NAT (???)” - statements made up by the utterly deranged

LOOK at what network ““engineers”” have been demanding your “respect” for all this time, with all the routers & physical networking layers we built for them (These are REAL techniques, devised by REAL network engineers)

iptables -t mangle -A POSTROUTING -o eth0 -j TTL --ttl-set $(cat /proc/sys/net/ipv4/ip_default_ttl)

iptables -A NO_PROXY -t nat -d 0.0.0.0/8 -j ACCEPT

There was no downtime. It was solely on your end.