My address is Tranquility Base, Moon, 0.67416 by 23.47314

I have no social security number because Im an illegal alien

Sabeltann? Ja vel faen!

Needs the keyword kaptein tho

Its really late for me and its been a very busy day (i finally have housing, in the nick of time, im not gonna be homeless, im so relieved 😭🤗) so i will come back to this tomorrow, but I just want to say that I actually really like that colour palette! I really agree with using the colour scheme to communicate that this is for all skin tones and hair colours.

Ill try to see take a look at sourcehut pages and ways of publishing to both web and print that are (relatively) easy as I have time in the coming days :)

As always, you rock! Im really impressed by how quickly everything has moved for this project; youre incredibly productive!

Har ikkje sett nok anime for å kjenne mange av disse bortsett fra de med hovedkarakterens navn i tittelen. Altså, Komis kommunikasjonsvansker må jo være Komi cant communicate, ikke sant? Har ikkje sett serien en gang men så nok reklamer da den først ble utgitt.

Må si at lutesøster skremmer meg… Lutefisk e faen mæ nok, vi treng ikkje lutesøster! Og lutefisk er nesten bare en måte å spise bacon på, men hva ville man spist med lutesøster? (Jeg antar at denne er himouto umaru chan? En til som jeg ikke har sett men har bare hørt om)

Men jeg må si, det viktigste med norske dubbinga er jo dialektene. Tenk hvor fantastisk han Sid var i istid, dialekten passa han perfekt. Da kommer spørsmålet: velg en anime. hvordan ville du tilpassa karakterene mtp dialektene?

That high of being with someone who fits you so well, who you fit so well, idk it can be so intoxicating.

(Also, if you end a line with a backslash \ it will force a line break without making a new paragraph)

Zero hours, nine AM

Sorry for writing copious amounts of text and treating this kinda like a journal, i know im pretty self centered right now, sorry.

Anyway

On the less wonderous side of things, ive been realizing the extent of my mothers codependency/fucked-up-edness and it shifted how I view her and made my discomfort relating to her more understandable. Im tired of being responsible for her emotional state, of being there for her in situations where I shouldnt have to be. For example, shes set a hard boundary about me leaving her house after 3 months, which is fine, but when I express anxiety around my housing instability and frustration with not being able to find a place to rent, she gets very upset and distraught that Im facing homelessness, and then I have to take care of her and soothe her and take care of her emotions when she is the one contributing to/forcing that situation in the first place! You cant tell your daughter to get out of your house and then turn around and be distraught by your daughter not having a place to live!? Make it make sense, please.

Ive got a great monster of the week campaign going on that im continuously excited for, its really fun :) plus everyone is trans and its great.

Anyway, life is life, and life is wonderful and terrible.

I haven’t looked into it at all, but I know sourcehut has a pages feature that lets you deploy a website hosted by them. I havent looked into it and it might not be suitable, but since youre already using sourcehut to host the repos it might be worth checking out.

I must admit Im a sucker for basic PDFs for A4 paper when it comes to assembly guides and manuals. I love having something printed that I can bind and leaf through. Perhaps considering a documentation format that can be published to multiple formats would be nice? I have used org mode to publish to both web and pdf (via latex) before, and the syntax tends to be unobtrusive enough that people who arent familiar with it can understand it with relative ease, but theres certainly other formats that would work (maybe texi? Though ive mostly used that for generating info manuals, i know theres texi to pdf and texi to html processors, though i dont know how featurful they are)

As always, youre doing amazing work and its super exciting to see this all coming together!

Im so glad this is coming along so well! And im so happy you liked the sphynx name!

Ive been checking out each of these posts and love seeing them, i just havent been commenting cause lifes been busy (week from homelessness and kinda sorta seeing someone new who ive fallen head over heels for), but ill just say it again: this is seriously game changing!

Ill ask some of my design friends if theyre interested in making a logo, and maybe someone will make something for the project!

And as always, you fucking rock! I dont have much to contribute right now, so im just cheering you on from the sidelines! Youre amazing and wonderful and making my dreams of being hair-free come within reach!

If you ever feel like picking it up again, at least one gal will be there reflecting

First and foremost, you are now my favorite human ever. I was just looking at electro costs today for the first time and crying cause Im unemployed and dont think ill ever be able to afford it. This would be such a game changer, it would literally change my life and access to care. You are a beautiful person for doing this

Ok gushing out of the way, I would love to contribute and help make this a reality, but dont really know how. I can write code (most relevant to this project, ive done a toy OS and bootloader in C), and am familiar with a handful of licenses. Ive also done basic home electronics (winding my own pickups, building and programming a mechanical keyboard, rewiring guitars, etc). Im also pretty ok at writing documentation and could do some latex magic to produce nice looking user and service manuals, as well as build instructions. But for the time being, I want to cheer you on!!! This project has made my day so much better just from the prospect of it existing, thank you

As far as the name goes, im unsure. But the mascot should be a hairless creature, like the sphynx cat or naked mole rat.

Thank you so much for beginning this project, it has serious impact and just reading this made my day far better and less distressing. You are a wonderful person!

Editing to add that perhaps you could consider something like sourcehut as a forge provider instead of github? With sourcehut anyone with an email address could contribute, and you could always mirror to github for visibility if you wanted.

Life is going really well this week (well, big asterisk, cause ill probs be homeless come end of march) and ive been connecting with people and like having a lovely time being social. Idk having people who you like being around is really nice. Went to the local t4t night at a bar that is i think a socialist bar, which was fun. Went with some friends and just hung out and talked, which was really enjoyable, even if my anxiety was through the roof the entire time.

Life is just wonderful right now, even if I have no job prospects and all the housing ads i respond to say nah.

I also started P a week ago, which has been really nice and stabilized my mood a bit. Ive also been debating compounding my own P, but im afraid of ordering a kg of white powder to my door lol.

Its also my birthday soon which i have such mixed feelings about.

Fool me once…

The third half of the sky

This is really good but also some things I struggle with in there. I know i have to do some kind of corpo-speak esq shit, but like

Para 2: Talking about yourself and selling your ‘passion’. e.g. “This role really attracts me as I am a self-described [industry] fan/nut/enthusiast. If successful, this role will help me deepen my industry knowledge and round out my aptitudes. The professoonal growth opportunities presented by [company] are compelling including its business connections, enthusiastic staff and positive reputation.”

This is so hard for me, like I know its not lying but selling myself is something im really bad at lol.

But genuinely thank you this is a helpful form to follow

Ohhh you have no idea how much I want to do this… It would be a gamble that probably wouldnt pay off tho, and I really need a job (my housing situation is over at the end of march and I need to have a job to be able to find an appartment that will rent to me, been turned down time and again because income verification).

This is a good starting point and not one Id considered, thank you 😀. I guess im off to make an account on the chatgpt thingy? Uff i feel dirty just writing that lol 😬

This got more rambly than I thought, sorry.

Im holding and trying to carry forward with me the mantra of “I am beautiful because Im trans”. Im trying to extend that more cerebral belief downwards, and invert the deeper feelings of my transness disqualifying me from any form of beauty. Just like trying to carry the beliefs towards each other so they can meet. and tbh I think once Ive addressed the major dysphoria points on my face it will be easier to extend that mantra to “I am attractive. Full stop”. I know I will never fit the societal standard of “pretty”, but that doesnt matter cause society is hateful and built on agressively contracted/shrunken colonial standards of beauty and gender. I have a lot of good beliefs in that cerebral space, i just need to bring them deeper. It also reveals to me the ways my familys weird body dismorphia stuff impacted my view of myself and whats acceptable, but thats a whole other conversation.

Ive also really been kinda inspired by a comment from Othello and a post from Cromalin about just being like “Im cute!”, and bringing that from yourself to yourself. Idk, i struggle with feeling like a toy, like, i get taken out of my box, played with, and out back in my box, and I dont have actual desires of my own. So a sort of side-project of sorts is working on accepting that I can and do want to be cute and that cuteness is a state of mind that I can carry with me wherever I am and whatever I look like.

These exercises were difficult and helpful, thank you

One of the things that became quickly apparent to me was the continuation of my whole “rules for me but not for thee” internalized BS. It makes it very difficult to see what is internalized transphobia/queerphobia/etc. and what is deeply negative self conception. For example, the cop in my head doesnt say “trans people cant be beautiful/pretty/attractive”, rather, he says “you cant be beautiful/pretty/attractive”. But is this judgement a result of self hatred alone? Or (more likely) is it the result of internalized transphobia coupled with a deep seated feeling/understanding that it is unacceptable to say something negative about another person, so the entire weight of the judgement gets turned onto myself as the only internally consistent and valid target? I guess another way to say it would be ‘is he saying “you cant be beautiful/pretty/attractive” or “you cant be beautiful/pretty/attractive (because you’re not cis)”?’.

Anyway, thank you for doing these journaling posts. This one was upsetting but in a probably healthy way. The only way out is through (insert chorus from “the wheel” here)

I hope your scavenger hunt goes well!