• Rai@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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        8 months ago

        “Is there anything else to do on meth other than jerk off? I’ve been doing it for seven or eight hours now. I’m straight but thinking about downloading Grindr. Anyone wanna chat?”

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          I’ve never been a stimulant person, even in my days of heavy drug use I didn’t like stimulants. But one time, someone must have used my rolling tray for meth. I have a curse where for some reason, I have accidentally taken meth twice. Never used it intentionally. I can’t even handle caffeine so meth just isn’t something I want period. There was a tiny purple salt flake on my rolling tray, thinking nothing of it I give it a lick to see what it is. Hour later, I’m confused by what I just ingested because I had never done meth, but knew for a fact that I took something. Night goes on, I end up downloading Grindr, and before I even had my account set up I just think for a second and say “goddamnit that was meth”.

    • allthetimesivedied [they/them, she/her]@hexbear.net
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      One time I was having psychosis on ambien (I think) and I was video-taping myself going through a recycle bin. I pointed the camera up at myself, and I think gestured to my shadow against the lid of the bin. I said, “That’s the Hat Man, he helps me out.”

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        /r/nootropics: nerds who have convinced themselves they aren’t actually drug users when they’re using drugs. Their liver is shutting down from their “stack”

        /r/phenibut: dudes actually trying to live the sigma grindset fantasy and getting addicted

        /r/researchchems: all of the above minus the porn, and then some

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          Phenibut is the absolute worst addiction ever. The problem is taking it for a while sticks you in the good side of mania until one day you just wake up and you’re not on the good side of mania anymore. Also, I was a high dose user. Withdrawal lasted for MONTHS. I would rather put down opiates and benzos at the same time again than phenibut, it’s so bad it makes poly withdrawal sound desirable.

          Crazy that it’s left legal as an open secret among semi truck drivers.

          • PaX [comrade/them, they/them]@hexbear.net
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            I’ve had my issues with it as well agony-deep

            It’s just so cheap and available and takes away all my anxiety sooooo welll and makes me not care about all my issues

            Not worth the aftereffects though lol

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                Yeahhh, the motor impairment just isn’t there nearly as much compared to something like alcohol

                Not true of the fluorinated derivative 4-fluorophenibut though lol, had to stop using that shit at work when I was in my using-drugs-to-cope-with-soul-destroying-retail-job era

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            How do you even get that deep? Tolerance builds up so fast I’d imagine you’d have to be taking it by the ounce after a while.

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              It builds up really fast, but it caps out too. Start off around 1.5gs a day and just slowly increase that dose until I had hit 4.5 grams a day and stayed there until I got off. The real issue with it is that Phenibut is the best drug for poly drug use, so once you hit that wall you start using a lot of other shit that makes it more dangerous.

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    8 months ago

    i’ve been deadnaming and misgendering myself in my dreams a lot lately, but low doses of dxm actually helped me find some peace with my body when I was struggling to come out

    I dont recommend it though lol